so on to Kannn

I was talking on Friday about how i was going to spend my weekend with soem AMAZING friends. and actually i got to spend that with like ALL my amazing friends.

Kandace Kent is this girl, that came to our church and was kinda on the outside until Jenny and I started talking to her and got her to come to camp, and she roomed with me and Tay. She is an amazinggg person also, and I love her to death.

WIth both Jen and Kan, we got SUPER close during my senior year, I mean these girls were what got me through that year, and then something changed.

I changed.

And after I graduated, I started partying and going out with other friends alot more, my new “college aged” friends. I started drinking, cussing, acting, living, and just plain out BEing DIFFERENT. and NOT in a good way. when i would come home on the weeeknds from college, i would attempt to get together with these girls, buttttt something better (so i thought) a party or some opportunity to drink would get in the way. so we just lost contact, i became adifferent person, and they were no longer in my life.

i went all the way through moving home in december to about the end of march keeping on partying, even though i was living at home. i loveee my bestfrans that i would hang out wtih but the drinking was taking a toll on my body and my emotions.

in March i went to claifornia with Ashley, and we had a blast, it was a fun trip, but some things happpened that would change both of our lives forever. we had gone to see her boyfriend who is in the navy, and we got drunk every night, and it was just ANOTHER big party trip. when we came home, there were some things that happened that were revealed and there was a chance that they would come into the open, so i had to do Damage Control. BOO. haha.

damage control turned into a change in myself.

well actually like a million changes.

i am ttrying realllly hard to stop drinking and partying. it’s been rough and i’ve had slip-ups, butttt overall it’s going well. my health has improved, but i’ve gained alot of weight. i guess the alcohol and the cigarettes were helping me lose weight, haha. not good though. so my body looks better, emotionally sometimes it’s tolling, but it’s getting better. my relationship with god was restored and things in my church have been going amazing.

but back to Kan and Jen, our relationship is back. growing slowly, and gaining trust back, but it’s getting there. i’m thinking that the three mooooooons are back in action. : )

insider.

wow. that was alotttt. so now that you know my whole past year, i dont know what else there is to say. : )