There has been SO much going on lately, and I am struggling to keep up with all the things that I have committed to.
If you have never done it before, attending TWO schools at once is pretty stinkin difficult. It’s hard to keep all the different assignments up to date, make sure I’m reading all my materials, and even just separating CFNI and UTA mindsets. I can’t necessarily go preach in my UTA classes, although I want to sometimes. : )
Bringing God to the forefront of ALL areas in my life has been my latest struggle. CAN I GET A WITNESS?! Haha… I’ve been really struggling with making sure that all my thoughts, actions, and even my school assignments are glorifying to God.
My Social Work classes are especially hard because of the BROKENNESS and HURT that I can see in all these people in my classes. I can’t even imagine WHY they would even try to help other people without helping their own lives first… Last week, we talked about abusive relationships, and I kid you not that almost half the women in one of my classes told some story about an abusive spouse… I just sat quietly to myself and prayed. I felt that it was all I could do not to break down and start preaching… but maybe that’s what I should have done.
I look back on all the times that I pushed my inklings to show God back, and I continued on my own way… and I realize a saddening trend. Which is that it happens A LOT.
Well. Right now, I don’t want to type anymore. And I’m in need of some serious prayer.
TTFN – Ta ta for now…
Bethany
